How can i not feel enraged at the fact that none of the things i want & like in life are coming to me ?

The reason why you are not achieving your goals is b/c you are constantly thinking negative thoughts. You listed some wonderful goals, but then you created a huge list of all the things that bother you and that you don't like. It sounds like you are very pessimistic, probably depressed, and full of a "woe is me" outlook. You need to focus on the goals you want and start doing something every day where you are working on them and not dwelling on the things you don't have, etc. For instance the first thing you want is the computer job, what have you done lately to try to get a computer job. Do you have the proper skills? If not, go back to school. Get financial istance/loan in order to do so. Do that now. Then learn interview skills, how to dress for success, and how to make a proper resume. That is what I would do first. Once you have a job, then you can focus on getting dental treatment/ medical treatment. Then once you have a good job and are getting your life back on track, (You might have to go to therapy to help with your depression and negativity b/c this will pull you down into a deep abyss if you don't do something about that now) then you can focus on saving up enough money to move where you want to move. Be realistic. You might want to move to a different location, but not leave the country. Most people take years to save up enough money to take a vacation out of the country, not even mentioning moving to another country. Then once you have those two things settled, then you can work on finding a relationship. A good place would be a singles group at church or eharmony b/c I know at least 5 people who have married their spouse from eharmony. Good luck. Remember, you have to take small steps to work toward your goal, but your first goal here is employment and get away from disability.